Week 11: Step 2 | We Agnostics Part 2 of 2, Step 2.

As we approach the second half of the Chapter “ We Agnostics” we look at pages 51 through 57 in the Big Book. 

 

Leaving aside the food question, is living on my own power enough? Do I believe my lack of power is the underlying reason why I am making an unhappy going of life? What does my step one inventory tell me?

 

When many thousands of people are able to say that not just a belief in God, but that the consciousness of the presence of God, is today the most important fact of their lives (while keeping an eye on my first step inventory of everything I’ve tried to manage my weight and life)...does this perhaps present a powerful reason why I should have faith in my own life?

 

Am I just is biased and unreasonable about the realm of the Spirit as people were about the realm of the material in ancient times? Do I not discard old technology for new simply because I have a believe that it will work? Could I not apply this belief to my own life with the same simple and reasonable willingness?

 

Have I come to my senses in step one and realize the conclusion that I am powerless over my food addiction or compulsive eating?

 

Am I satisfied with any recovery proposal which does not lend itself to a reasonable approach (step one) and interpretation (step two)?

 

When I really see step one, crushed by myself and this crisis, that I am unable to postpone Overeating any longer, do I believe I had to fearlessly face the question that either God is everything or else he has nothing? What is my choice to be? This is my second step choice.

 

To make this choice, we review the troubles or bedelivements listed in the middle of page 52, taking them into my morning meditation...consider each sentence, asking myself...what if God is nothing?

 

If God is nothing, can I see that I can only improve these things using solely the power that I can muster up on my own will in any given day? Isn’t that terribly limiting?

 

Then I ask myself...what if God is everything?

 

What if reliance upon faith could change and solve all of these problems listed in paragraph two, page 52?

 

What if God will empower my life and can move me infinitely beyond where I am today?

 

Now, make your choice.

 

Page 55, paragraph two, the question is if lack of power is my dilemma, where and how am I to find this power?

 

That’s what the rest of this book and the steps are about. The next 2 Paragraphs on page 55 explain exactly how and exactly where to find this power.

 

As I conclude step two, do I believe I can find the great reality within myself if I search fearlessly? Do I believe that God reveals himself to me as I reveal myself to me? as I get to my truth? If I can lay aside prejudice about God, if I can think honestly, if I’ve been encouraged to search diligently within myself, I can find God.

 

As I begin to see the truth, he will show me the way. There is only one must in this chapter, page 44: Have I faced the fact that I must find a spiritual basis of life or else?